Weight Watcher success!!!

Tomorrow is my 3rd weigh in and the end of my 2nd week on WW. And I'm doing GREAT!

Last week I lost 5.2 pounds! And since I was sick, that was without exercise. This week, I've still been doing well, and I even fit in a workout the last two days. I feel hopeful about my weigh in.

I've had a much BIGGER success, though. Last night, I had the urge to binge. And guess what! I didn't! Here's how: The cravings set in, and I knew that I did not want to throw away all my hard work. I was only in the second week, but I wasn't willing to give up on myself. So I distracted myself by calling a friend. Then, I focused on how good it would feel to be in control of the cravings. I told myself that waking up the next morning knowing I had resisted a binge would be a very powerful feeling. So I went to bed still wanting to eat, and when I woke up this morning, I got a big smile on my face thinking about the victory. Here's what I plan to tell myself from now on when I want to binge:

"The victory of being in control makes me feel far better than any food ever could."

This works because I am an instant gratification kind of girl. I want to be happy now, no matter how miserable it makes me feel in the future. That's why I binge. But the power of knowing I had control kicks in within a few hours. It's not instant gratification, but it's a lot more immediate than losing 100 lbs!

Anyway, I am thrilled about this victory. I'm also fairly certain I've never done anything like that in my life. I've ALWAYS given into the cravings. And now I know: I can be in control.

Time for something new....

Ok, I feel a little silly. I just spent the last few posts telling you about intuitive eating. And now, although I'm not abandoning what I've learned, I am moving on to something new.

I have decided that I am going to do Weight Watchers. At first I was going to phrase this as I was going to "try again", but I want to use stronger and more positive language than that. So I'm not trying, I'm DOING, and it's not again, because last time was just a "try". Get it? :)

Why am I doing this? Well, I am sick of not losing weight. I'm frustrated that I'm gaining weight again. And I am just all around sick of being stuck in this body! So tomorrow I am going to my first WW meeting, and I am greatly looking forward to it!

I was going to post my "before" picture and weight, but I just chickened out. But I promise that when I lose some weight I will post my starting information. It's just too embarrassing to post when I'm still there, you know?

I will be back tomorrow to tell you how it goes!